VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
December 16

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There're always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.



So I work in Retail, so thus being the busiest shopping days of the year you would think I would come to expect the rudeness, the meanness and the nastiness of some people shopping at the store. I have been cussed, screamed at, ran over by shopping carts, pulled in 10 directions at once trying to answer customer questions, to only be cussed at for taking care of someone (the person who was there first) before taking care of them.

So for my pet peeves - shoppers - consumers
Those who wait until the last minute and then expect you to have that #1 hot item for the season in stock and in the color they want — Wake up people, hot items are only hot because they are hard to find..duh

Those who think they are the only person in the store shopping and demand your immediate attention, and solely. Never mind the elderly lady your helping, oh no these type of people want help and they want it now, everyone else be damned

Those who run you down to get something off the top shelf, when the exact same item is at eye level on the shelf right in front of them.

Those who have to take every item that is in a row on the shelf to see if they can find a different one in there. Hello People, see the little tags on the shelf, that says hey this is this items home and there is no difference in the front and and the back one.

Those who swear you had that item last week, when in fact you have never had that item, and then they call you a liar when you tell them you have never had it, and no it wasn’t sitting right there last week. What is sitting there right now is what was sitting there for the past month.

Those who get mad at you for other customers being in their way. Or if you have to walk by them to help another customer, you can’t walk behind them and if you walk in front of them they huff and puff like you just committed a major sin.

okay I can go on and on here..but I think you all get the point so please for me and my sanity the next time you go shopping be nice, and patient. and remember this is our job, we do it to support our families, and we can only do so much in the time we are there. We do not control if we have an item, or if someone else was there before you.


True friendship is
like sound health;
the value of it is
seldom known
until it is lost.

- Charles Caleb Colton -


this completes another full year
words many many words
words of truth
words from my heart
words from my soul
words from the me that is me
words hidden, cloaked and forbidden
words, my words
six years of words


I hurt so much, there is so much pain inside of me that I can not fight it and at times must give in to this emptiness that encompasses my soul and my spirit, for me there is no future, only endless days of nothingness and isolation, every day has always been that way, everyday will be that way, everyday is a trail in my perseverance, and a prayer that tomorrow will no longer come


Today marks the ending of the fourth year of my thoughts, I wished I would have been as devoted as I was the first two years on keeping a daily entry, and shall try much harder to do better in the next year. Something I have noticed through the years, I seem to find it easier to write when I am in the state of darkness, anyhow more so than when I am happy, which tends to tell me that the thoughts are my escape from the pain in this life of mine. Just maybe anyhow.


another full year is done since this began, sadly I have failed in keeping the entries up dated every day this year, but hopefully next year will do better.


Well today My Thoughts is official two years old. It's hard to believe I have been writing these this long. I look back over the days and now the years and I see a picture of who I was, and for this reason I must continue onward.

Thank you to all who have visited often.

The counter reads 56,000 visitors which isn't an accurate count but as close as I have. there are now a total of 730 thoughts within my thoughts.


Well I've kept my thoughts for a year now, today marks the last day in the first year of my thoughts. A lot of reflections and feelings have been poured into these pages over the past 365 days.

My Thoughts has been a blessing in disguise to me, for it has allowed me a way to say things I can not say, express what is inside, rather anyone understands it or not, I do, and that is what matters most.

My simple little page of Thoughts has become a complicated maze of other things, but still my main focus for myself is My Thoughts and nothing else, All the rest is so others can have something else to do on their visit here.

One more tidbit of info just for my reference at midnight My Thoughts had 6591 visitors to it in it's first year of existence. It underwent three major face lifts. And many many additions.

For those who come by often, I thank you. For those of you reading my Thoughts for the first time, please come back again.


The more sand that has escaped from the hourglass of our life, the clearer we should see through it.
- Jean-Paul Sartre -